Wow. You’re so close to freedom, can you feel it coming? Happy Birthday beautiful! I’ve so glad we’re friends. I’m glad we have been childhood friends. And I’m glad I know we’ll always be friends, because I’ve left you a little space in my heart, that can never be replaced. It’s crazy to think about each and every year, how we’ve changed not only physically but inside as well. We’ll keep changing, we’ll keep growing, but I want you to know, not matter how much older we both get, I’ll always love you. You’re a true friend.
I miss being so close. I miss living down the street. I miss exchanging secrets. I miss having marker fights in the bath tub. I miss you so much, seeing you at school, is one of the best things that has happened to me this year. Thank you for being my dearest friend through thick and thin, through New Years Eve night behind Big Lots, through forrest exploration to new heights, and through morning breathers in the Chesapeake Apartments.
I’ll never forget you, I’ll never let you go. Can’t wait to see what summer of 09’ has in store for us.Warped Tour, hold on tight, this summer is going to be the ride of a lifetime-just wait!
I looked beyond her stale eyes. I forgave her wretched lies. She asked me for just one more, one more hit that would take me to greater heights. She fed my curiosity with a new perspective on the world, and the air I breathe in this very second. She wrapped me up so tight, that I turned into nothing more than a useless tool for her pleasure. She became the only thing I wanted, an untouchable addiction. She provided me love that no other possibly could. I never wanted to give her up-she was mine. I did what she did. I watched her burn at my own skin, when she told me, “Together, we’ll be safe, only together…” I believed for her to be my one true love and my way to escape from this shallow life. I craved for her experience. I grasped for her authority. I needed to become her. One day, a certain Tuesday in February, she dragged me away. She lead me to unknown territory. She smiled and told me, “Everything is going to be alright, you have me…” I replied, “I do.” I let the wintry bitter air comfort me. I slowly inhaled; convinced, together we’ll be safe, but it wasn’t enough. I was terrified by this trip to unfamiliar ground. I pushed out the words, “Let’s turn back.” She turned around, “Do you trust me?” I stared at her pale wrap of skin. That question seemed to unravel her patchy personality. My eyes began to burn from the breath that held the word “no” in it. The word was scratched out of my throat and thrust upon my lips. Shivers sank into my veins and impelled tears down my face. She was infuriated by this simple word. She began to walk away, almost gliding with the wind. She glanced back, then disappeared into the smoke around her. All it took was just two little letters to make a powerful impact on my new view point in life. That was the day I turned around. I turned against my dear companion. Someone who I believed to be my savior, my angel, and my mentor. She held my hands in my time of need, but she stole my faith in all of humanity. I realized her true identity that Tuesday. Her intentions were fake, she was just a lie. She tricked me into playing her twisted game. I was the pawn, and she was the king, but that day I was the one with royalty. I ended up winning, and she left empty handed.I gained so much from her lesson, one-on-one. Today, I am successful. Today, I am hopeful. Today, I am a new person, a happier person. Now I am content, but now in her way, in my way, a different way. I learned overtime, that she wasn’t who I wanted to become, she was just an obstacle I had to overcome to develop into the person I am today. Oh, and her name you ask? Her name was, “Mary Jane”.