I’m a bitch. I’m a lover. I’m a child, I’m a mother. I’m a sinner-I’m a saint. I do not feel ashamed. I’m your hell. I’m your dream, I’m nothin’ in between. You know, you wouldn’t want it any other way.
Now don’t get me wrong, the gay community has come along way since the Stonewall Riots. Some states allow more rights for gays than others and change is still going on everywhere around the globe. But it is still not enough; with discrimination scratching at the closet doors and one hate crime after another. I encourage all those who can open the door to their hearts and invite acceptance of others inside; to never give up on how we can change the future. There is no limit on love. There is no stop sign on change. And there is no containment to being true to yourself.
Thank you for being there when I broke down and cried.
Thank you for hold my hands as the wind tried to blow me away to an unfamiliar place, towards an unfamiliar me. Sometimes life decides to put you on the wrong path.
The only way to realize this is if someone tries their hardest to put you back on the right one.
All this time, I just wanted you to see the path I walked down.
But all along you were watching me getting lost into a labyrinth of my own self pity.
I know, I don’t know everything. I know, I can be stubborn. And I know, I’m not exactly the “picture perfect daughter” you might have asked God for.
But the one thing I know more than anything, is that I love you with my all my heart.
I would never let anything bad happen to you.
It’s funny how the things you always say are so cliché.
But the funniest part is that you voice is almost like a rhythm.
The words go the beating of our hearts, intertwining.
We don’t always get along. Sometimes it’s me, sometimes it’s you, and sometimes we don’t even have to speak. But underneath all that fighting, there are just two people, hurting.
I’m not the quickest to say sorry, although it doesn’t mean that I don’t care.
The trick is to swim, and just keep our heads above water, because one day we’ll make it to shore. We will make it through the tough times, as the currents drift us off and apart from each other. Until that day, I’ll find the strength to stand on my own; I thought I should tell you all the things I should have said.
“Thank you for…”
“Thank you for loving me and caring for me each and every day.”
“Thank you for understanding the pressures I face.”
“Thank you for believing in me, when I never could.”
“Thank you for challenging me.”
“Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts.”
“Thank you for helping me realize the differences between right and wrong.”
“Thank you for never giving up on me.”
“Thank you for seeing mebetter than I can see myself sometimes.”
“Thank you for singing me a beautiful song, called advice.”
“Thank you for thinking I’m beautiful.”
“Thank you for giving me a wonderful childhood.”
“Thank you for the food you provide me to keep me healthy.”
“Thank you for being my mother; it’s the best gift I could ever ask for.”
I’ll always love you.
You’re not perfect, but I could never think of anyone else I’d rather be my mother.
I need to learn to love myself before I can learn to love anyone else, and I truly believe I'm almost there.Every day is a blessing, keep that in mind when you don't agree with the way things are going.