Forget the memories I’ll never have, Forget the lovers I thought I would have had. Forget the pictures I never took, Forget the lies I overlooked.
Forget the last time I saw your face, Forgive the time we touche, but not embrace.
Delete my number, off your phone. Ignore my calls, I’ll leave a message after the tone. Lock your doors, don’t answer the bell’s ring. Let me knock away, I’ll wait weathering. Sell your house, to the nearby realtor. Move out of the state, leave me without a mentor.
Let me die in this rabbit hole, I drink my pain away, in this hard place. I’m all alone, falling apart like once beautiful flower in the kitchen’s table vase.
I know I’ll never be anything more than this. Nothing better than a reck, with nothing to risk. I do nothing but drink the night away, Eye rolling drunk with nothing more to say. I drink by myself, night after night. I smoke alone, night after night.
I’m all alone. Alone in the world, alone, and on my own.
So forget the sorrows, forget the pain, I deal with day to day.
I can’t stop the alcohol from burning my throat. I can’t stop the smoke filling up my lungs. I’m a hopeless cause; I can’t be fixed. Before my life begins, it’s already done.
I miss Stephy, Bekah Hannah, Charlotte; I miss everyone who is so important to me…
Stephy: I’m constantly missing you like crazy. You were my best friend, and there’s this little place in my heart I keep you in. I wish we talked, but I’m scared. I’m absolutely terrified you hate me. I’d rather keep the memories we had then have it end like my other friends…You’re so important to me, I only wish you knew.
Bekah: I admire and adore you so much. You’re are so unique and gifted, I miss you like hell. I miss the times I spent with you, a day without you was purely dreadful. I’m so happy that you contact with me, because sometimes I get so wrapped up in my own little world that I can’t focus on anything or anyone but myself. I would never have been able to survive Westwood without you, you mean the world to me. Thank you.
Hannah: I miss your quirky attitude, and how much fun you are to be around. I think you’re absolutely amazing and you are going to go so far. You have so much to offer this world, I’ll always be here for you, no matter what. I love you.
Charlotte: You are so good to me, I cherish the times we spend together. I’d be miserable without you in my life. I feel like we’re a million miles away, but you won’t let me lose you. You make me so happy, because you are so strong and inspiring, you keep me going, truly. I love you with all my heart, and always will.
I missed all of your 18th birthdays. My one true hope is that they were amazing. I love you guys, don’t ever change. I’ve never been blessed with such beautiful, caring, and wonderful friends.
you look so safe with your lifetime guarantee- total satisfaction, or we’ll get you more for free but the small print obscured behind the advertising screams, cries out in warning: listen, please don’t be another blind victim of this American greed.